Well, it appears I have been given my third chance. Life has returned to mostly normal (minus my negative attitude). I don't really know much more than that at this point because there have been no "in-depth" discussions of exactly what Z's current feelings are. And that may just be something that never happens, I'm not going to push any issues. Instead I will concentrate on being a better me and let everything else fall in line.
To those of you who were concerned, I appreciate it. To those of you who were bored and/or annoyed by my whining - tough cookies. LOL!