Wednesday, June 06, 2007

My List Of Excuses

Wow! It has been awhile since I posted anything new here. Wanna know why? Because I was beginning to bore myself to tears with my own posts. Which totally blows chunks because I truly want to be a real blogger and actually have an interesting blog. It just hasn't materialized yet. But, no worries. I am not yet giving up.

I think a lot of the problem is linked to my lack of sleep which is a problem that just keeps getting worse and worse. I hate sleeping, I really do. I am always afraid I might miss something. No matter where I'm at I make sure I am the last person to head to bed. Why, you may ask? Duh! Isn't it obvious? What if I go to bed and then the other people that are awake suddenly remember they forgot to tell some juicy gossip about someone we all know. I would totally miss out. Or what if I go to bed and suddenly the funniest commercial in the history of the world is shown and my brother got to see it, but I missed it. That's just not acceptable. I have to be the last one awake.

I don't have to be the first person awake, however. Just have to be the second person awake and I better be waking up less than 5 minutes after the first person wakes up. Which actually does happen 99% of the time because I am a very light sleeper and as soon as someone opens a door, turns on a light, etc. it wakes me right up. That way I don't miss anything in the mornings either.

On top of hating sleep, working 3rd shift makes it worse. How am I supposed to sleep during the day when the rest of the world is awake? Plus, in about 6 weeks I will be changing shifts to a mostly normal shift and the closer it gets, the more my body refuses to sleep during the day. It's like I am already adjusting my sleep for my new hours even though they haven't started yet. I have a life-long habit of only averaging 6 hours of sleep a night, but now that I'm down to around 4 1/2 or 5 hours per night, it's really fogging my brain. And a fogged brain is not conducive to blogging.

I do most of my blogging at work, which means in the middle of the night while sitting in an office by myself quietly staring at a computer screen for 10 hours a night. And if you think it's easy to stay awake after only sleeping 4 hours since being at work last night, you're sadly mistaken. But, I do stay awake. I entertain myself by blogging. And now you understand why this blog is so lame, random, boring, irregular and in need of some help. Seriously, I am not fishing for compliments here. I don't need my 1 reader to post a comment stating that they think my blog is just fine. That's not what I'm going for. I'm just trying to explain why it's been the way it's been.

Also, I wanted to inform you that I am working on turning things around both with my blog and with my foggy brain. For my brain, I have turned to drinking green tea to help promote mental focus. And for my blog, I have turned to drinking green tea to help promote mental focus. Hopefully, the green tea helps. Especially since I am using it as the solution in two seperate problems. I realize that what I should be concentrating on is getting more sleep, but that will come naturally when the new person who was hired here has gone through all of her orientation and training and is finally ready to replace me on 3rd shift. Then, I will be able to sleep at night when the rest of the world is sleeping and I can finally return to my normal 6 hour night. Seriously, I can't wait. It will make a huge difference, you'll see.


Scott said...

I know you're not fishing for compliments, so this is not one. I like your blog. I like the insightful posts as well as the light-hearted "top ten" lists. I liked the humming bird post, although I must admit when I began reading it I expected, and hoped for, more about your visit with (y)our sister.

I remember when I was blogging "back in the day". It was enjoyable. Just remember, blogs are 90% for you, 10% for other people. At least that's my opinion.

misty said...

i still read you :)